January 15, 2016
I was relieved when my surgeon agreed to remove my implants. I was nervous and scared. He was graciously supportive of my making the best decision for me. [Exhale] His main concerns were clearance for surgery by another specialist and ensuring that I was completely clear about how my chest might look after surgery. Best-case scenario with my explant procedure (post-mastectomy) will be a flat chest but given my stature, I could even end up slightly concave. I would be left with freshly opened scars, which had finally faded nearly away, and the loss of the fake nipples he had created for me 8 years ago. He told me many women have asked for the removal because they too worried about toxicity only to want implants back the next month after they looked down. I assured him I was sure over and over. And I am sure. What am I willing to sacrifice to feel whole, authentic and well? Is it even a sacrifice?